As I sat and pondered today I realized I haven't kept up on this blog like I should have. My life this past year has been a mix of every emotion imaginable. I have dealt with things things that I have had hidden away. I have learned that I can't hide forever. I've discovered that my brain is more powerful than my body and if I can get my body in agreeance I can do anything. I have learned that people grow and change and that sometimes they grow away from you. It doesn't mean that they like you any less, but that you are becoming different people that need different things in life. I have learned that I can be whomever I want, if I only have the courage to do so.
I am still working at a gym and in January our trainer, Lesha, decided to start a Biggest Loser competition for some of her friends and she asked if my mom and I wanted to be part of it. It is now 13 weeks later and I am down 28 lbs. I haven't been at this weight for years. I feel good, but I still don't really see the results because I look in the mirror and still see a fat girl. At times it is really depressing. I sometimes want to throw in the towel and quit because I tell myself it doesn't matter. It isn't making a difference in anything, but then some kind soul sent from Heavenly Father comments on how good I am doing and I find the will somewhere to push through this another week. I am getting ready to do a 5k at the end of this month and I am kind of excited. I don't know how it will turn out, but I am going to finish it. I am done being a quitter.
Current weight: 275
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YOU DO LOOK WONDERFUL! and happy! I am actually envious that you have made the decision to make you a better person. It's a hard thing to do and to stick with. You are doing wonderfully. There will be set backs, but you just start again where you left off. Keep the faith and keep the strength going.
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