Back and better than Ever...

It has been 7 months and two weeks since I have visited this blog. I have no excuse other than I got discouraged. I wasn't seeing the results that I wanted to see and so I quit, but I am back now and better than ever. Lots has changed in my life since I last posted. I am now working on a gym so that makes it really easy to workout. My sister lives here and is my manager and my coach along with a great trainer named Lesha. They are the reason that I am back to blogging here. Lesha has got me started on a workout plan and today she helped me figure out how many calories I need to be eating so that I can finally lose weight. I am working out every day and I love it. I am still planning on doing the Sawtooth Relay and I am slowly building up my endurance. I'm still not a runner and I am not sure that I ever will be, but I am trying.

It is amazing how much perspective can change ones life. My perspective has brought me back to you. My friends. And so now, I begin my accountability to you again. Thank you for holding me a higher standard than I hold myself to. After all, without you my blog would be kind of worthless.

Weight: 300

SAWTOOTH

This weekend I got the chance to see my sister run in the Sawtooth Relay. It was really fun. I felt like I was in a car for three days straight though. Sawtooth is a 62 mile, 6 person relay and each person runs two legs. It was awesome to be a part of. :) My sister's team is named the Marauding Monkeys. Those six people were amazing. This year the team consisted of Claudia (my sister), Brice (my sisters friend and returning monkey), Danny (again friend and returning monkey), Liz (my sisters assistant track coach and first time monkey), Rusty (head cross country coach and first time monkey), and Launa (first time monkey). There was also Seth (the monkey gone mad). Seth decided that he was going to run it on his own this year. They are all amazing. I was so inspired by these awesome people. Now, like I said before, I am not a runner, but watching these crazy, determined people I was so moved that I have decided that next year I am going to run Sawtooth so, my training starts today. Slow and steady wins the race right, so that is how my training starts. Slow....

Current weight: 295

I think I can, I think I can...

What a day... Sometimes I feel like life is passing me by as I move at a snails speed. Crazy I know. Life is going well for me though. So I was going to name this post, " My Fat Cotton Candy Self with Moose Tracks all over me." but that title was a little long. :) I had a bad food day yesterday that ended with cotton candy and Moose Tracks ice cream. This whole losing weight isn't easy and on days when my self control is wavering it is a little bit harder. Despite all of this I am making progress. I am like the little engine that could or the tortise from the tortise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race. I THINK I CAN... I THINK I CAN. Life is good.

Current weight: 296

Going Public...

So I think I am going to take this blog off of private. I saw something on Studio 5 today about weight loss blogs. I think that the support and love that is generated by knowing that there are others out there who are going through the same things is outstanding. You all are my support and I want to be able to share that support with others who are going through the same things I am. Please keep reading and know that I love you and am so grateful that I have an amazing support system like you.

Current Weight: 297

Big Sigh.....

I had a very sad "me" day the other day. Mom and I went to the DI and I found some really cute shorts, but they didn't fit me. It made me very sad for a little while because I hate being to fat to wear the clothes that I absolutely love. It makes me want to quit shopping all together. Sometimes I think it isn't worth it. It's times like those shopping moments that make me discouraged... I think why bother trying to lose weight... I am never going to be skinny. Those are the times I need to stop and refocus myself and remind myself that it isn't going to come off in a day or maybe even a week or a month, but as long as I am working on becoming a healthier and more active person it will happen. I hope...

Current weight: 297

Wii and Biggest Loser

I got my new Wii Fit today and I am way excited for it. I worked out on it and it made me sweat. I am doing everything I can to keep my body from getting comfortable and in a routine. As I watched Biggest Loser tonight I started to think about why I am as heavy as I am... I am not quite sure yet, but I am bound and determined to figure it out. Getting healthy isn't just about getting skinny. It is about finding out why I got fat in the first place so that I don't do the same things over and over again and find myself back where I started. It's something that I want to get past and never end up there again.

As for weight loss... It is a slow race right now. I am progressing though and that is all that matters.

Current weight: 299

Going to the Gym

Well, tomorrow the video will be done then we can get it sent in. I am excited about it. I have decided that along with wanting to be a runner I am going to splurge and buy myself a gym membership. I am determined that I am going to be thinner. I am going to be healthier and I am going to do it the old fashioned way. Lots and lots of hard work and sweat. :) The time has come for me to take charge of my life and finally stand on my own two feet. There are plenty of people that I can depend on, but the decision and the effort all hinge on ME!! I am an adult... I am strong... I am woman... Hear me ROAR!!!! This week hasn't been great for the weight loss thing. I didn't progress, but I didn't digress either.

Current weight: 300 lbs.