Big Sigh.....

I had a very sad "me" day the other day. Mom and I went to the DI and I found some really cute shorts, but they didn't fit me. It made me very sad for a little while because I hate being to fat to wear the clothes that I absolutely love. It makes me want to quit shopping all together. Sometimes I think it isn't worth it. It's times like those shopping moments that make me discouraged... I think why bother trying to lose weight... I am never going to be skinny. Those are the times I need to stop and refocus myself and remind myself that it isn't going to come off in a day or maybe even a week or a month, but as long as I am working on becoming a healthier and more active person it will happen. I hope...

Current weight: 297

Wii and Biggest Loser

I got my new Wii Fit today and I am way excited for it. I worked out on it and it made me sweat. I am doing everything I can to keep my body from getting comfortable and in a routine. As I watched Biggest Loser tonight I started to think about why I am as heavy as I am... I am not quite sure yet, but I am bound and determined to figure it out. Getting healthy isn't just about getting skinny. It is about finding out why I got fat in the first place so that I don't do the same things over and over again and find myself back where I started. It's something that I want to get past and never end up there again.

As for weight loss... It is a slow race right now. I am progressing though and that is all that matters.

Current weight: 299

Going to the Gym

Well, tomorrow the video will be done then we can get it sent in. I am excited about it. I have decided that along with wanting to be a runner I am going to splurge and buy myself a gym membership. I am determined that I am going to be thinner. I am going to be healthier and I am going to do it the old fashioned way. Lots and lots of hard work and sweat. :) The time has come for me to take charge of my life and finally stand on my own two feet. There are plenty of people that I can depend on, but the decision and the effort all hinge on ME!! I am an adult... I am strong... I am woman... Hear me ROAR!!!! This week hasn't been great for the weight loss thing. I didn't progress, but I didn't digress either.

Current weight: 300 lbs.