Well... Color Me Rad.

This last weekend I ran a 5k with my sister, brother-in-law, and nephew.  While I didn't run the entire thing, I finished and most importantly, I had fun.  It was fun to be able to do this with my family. :)   I also finished my biggest loser competition this week.  I don't know if we won or not,  but what does that really matter?   I have lost 30 lbs in 15 weeks.   I call that a success. :)

Current Weight: 273

I'm back again...

As I sat and pondered today I realized I haven't kept up on this blog like I should have.  My life this past year has been a mix of every emotion imaginable.  I have dealt with things things that I have had hidden away.  I have learned that I can't hide forever.  I've discovered that my brain is more powerful than my body and if I can get my body in agreeance I can do anything.  I have learned that people grow and change and that sometimes they grow away from you.  It doesn't mean that they like you any less, but that you are becoming different people that need different things in life.  I have learned that I can be whomever I want, if I only have the courage to do so. 

I am still working at a gym and in January our trainer, Lesha, decided to start a Biggest Loser competition for some of her friends and she asked if my mom and I wanted to be part of it.  It is now 13 weeks later and I am down 28 lbs.  I haven't been at this weight for years.  I feel good, but I still don't really see the results because I look in the mirror and still see a fat girl.  At times it is really depressing.  I sometimes want to throw in the towel and quit because I tell myself it doesn't matter.   It isn't making a difference in anything, but then some kind soul sent from Heavenly Father comments on how good I am doing and I find the will somewhere to push through this another week.   I am getting ready to do a 5k at the end of this month and I am kind of excited.   I don't know how it will turn out, but I am going to finish it.  I am done being a quitter.

Current weight: 275

Miles, Motivation, and A-Ha moments

Where do I start? Lots of things have happened to me this last week. I jogged my first mile... I JOGGED MY FIRST MILE EVER!!! That is a huge accomplishment for me. Okay I didn't jog it straight through, but I did it none the less. Now that I know that I can do I now hold myself to a higher standard. That is my minimum now.

I learned I could do that because of an AMAZING guy named Larry. As I said previously, I am working at a gym. Well, there is a guy that comes in twice a day to work out. He is just dedicated. He was diagnosed with diabetes just a little while ago and he is exercising to get it under control. Well, after jogging my half mile the other day I hopped on the treadmill next to him so that I could chat with him and I jogged another quarter mile. "Wow," I thought to myself, "I just jogged 3/4 of a mile. I think I am going to die." Haha. I got off and walked away, turned around and stood there for a minute watching Larry and I thought if he can do this I can surely jog another quarter mile and make make it an even mile. I did. I felt great. I had done something I had never been able to do before. So even though you will never read this, Thanks Larry for being such an example to me.

My a-ha moment came today... I realized that I am an emotional eater. Not so much when I am happy, but when I am sad or depressed my first refuge is a candy bar so that I can drown my sorrows in chocolate. Now that I am aware of this fact I can work to change it. A-ha... Life keeps moving on. :)

Back and better than Ever...

It has been 7 months and two weeks since I have visited this blog. I have no excuse other than I got discouraged. I wasn't seeing the results that I wanted to see and so I quit, but I am back now and better than ever. Lots has changed in my life since I last posted. I am now working on a gym so that makes it really easy to workout. My sister lives here and is my manager and my coach along with a great trainer named Lesha. They are the reason that I am back to blogging here. Lesha has got me started on a workout plan and today she helped me figure out how many calories I need to be eating so that I can finally lose weight. I am working out every day and I love it. I am still planning on doing the Sawtooth Relay and I am slowly building up my endurance. I'm still not a runner and I am not sure that I ever will be, but I am trying.

It is amazing how much perspective can change ones life. My perspective has brought me back to you. My friends. And so now, I begin my accountability to you again. Thank you for holding me a higher standard than I hold myself to. After all, without you my blog would be kind of worthless.

Weight: 300

SAWTOOTH

This weekend I got the chance to see my sister run in the Sawtooth Relay. It was really fun. I felt like I was in a car for three days straight though. Sawtooth is a 62 mile, 6 person relay and each person runs two legs. It was awesome to be a part of. :) My sister's team is named the Marauding Monkeys. Those six people were amazing. This year the team consisted of Claudia (my sister), Brice (my sisters friend and returning monkey), Danny (again friend and returning monkey), Liz (my sisters assistant track coach and first time monkey), Rusty (head cross country coach and first time monkey), and Launa (first time monkey). There was also Seth (the monkey gone mad). Seth decided that he was going to run it on his own this year. They are all amazing. I was so inspired by these awesome people. Now, like I said before, I am not a runner, but watching these crazy, determined people I was so moved that I have decided that next year I am going to run Sawtooth so, my training starts today. Slow and steady wins the race right, so that is how my training starts. Slow....

Current weight: 295

I think I can, I think I can...

What a day... Sometimes I feel like life is passing me by as I move at a snails speed. Crazy I know. Life is going well for me though. So I was going to name this post, " My Fat Cotton Candy Self with Moose Tracks all over me." but that title was a little long. :) I had a bad food day yesterday that ended with cotton candy and Moose Tracks ice cream. This whole losing weight isn't easy and on days when my self control is wavering it is a little bit harder. Despite all of this I am making progress. I am like the little engine that could or the tortise from the tortise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race. I THINK I CAN... I THINK I CAN. Life is good.

Current weight: 296

Going Public...

So I think I am going to take this blog off of private. I saw something on Studio 5 today about weight loss blogs. I think that the support and love that is generated by knowing that there are others out there who are going through the same things is outstanding. You all are my support and I want to be able to share that support with others who are going through the same things I am. Please keep reading and know that I love you and am so grateful that I have an amazing support system like you.

Current Weight: 297